When i got enough confidence,
the stage was gone.
When i was sure of losing,
i won.
When i needed people the most,
they left me.
When i learnt to dry my tears,
i found a shoulder to cry on.
When i mastered the skill of hating,
somebody started loving me.
While waiting for dawn,
I fell asleep,
And the sun came out.
sdukvgfdbkbjnasjhbgjnfdhbdjnfdshjfk WHY WAS I NOT AN EXTRA IN THIS MOVIE!?!?! WHHHHYYY
If any of them even reads this, since I’m kinda private about this, 4—— will laugh happily when he sees this and clap his hands, he’ll come to my funeral and spit on my coffin, and so will 4——- and
8——. And 8—— will also spray ‘loser’ on my coffin and then he’ll let 2——— overturn my coffin and stomp on it lastly. Did I say I dreamt all this last night. And dreams are just so significant to me.
And I just get kicked in the head again and again. Nothing I do is ever good enough. I’m never going to be pretty enough, good enough, smart enough, strong enough. And hearing your ex say that you’re a lousy judoka. Hearing him say all the bad stuff about you when he used to encourage you. And my results. Things are just looking so very bad, I don’t want to look. I just want to go back to the day I turned 1. The day I swam faster than the rest to come to this stinkhole of a life. I’m not good at anything except giving up. Just like the loser I am.
I wish to die. I know my death will be insignificant and no one will mourn or anything, but it’s better than being alive yet insignificant and non-existent and just a nuisance to everyone around me. Having had a horrible relationship with your first love, being happy and sad one second after the other like a mentally unstable psychopath, being told that he loves you, and then getting dumped by him after a week overseas spent missing him and thinking about him, asking for one last hug and he shrugs you off like you’re just absolutely disgusting, being hated by him, being treated like some enemy just because I have that little bit of connection with him which means so damn little. Finally finding a guy who you think you can trust, sharing everything with him, calling him your best friend and treating him like one with all your heart and soul, just to get hurt and betrayed by him again and again, and just biting your tongue and holding back everything as you try to be strong and not cry as he hurts you over and over and stab you deep with his glib tongue and enormous ego. Just when you think you find your soulmate and best friend for life whom you’d want to get married to and loving him so wholeheartedly and just getting disappointed and hurt over and over again. And I’m just lying here in bed trying to fight back my tears as the words on the screen become blur with the moisture pooling and forming at the corner of my eyes. And thunder and lighting just flash right outside my window, screaming at me to join them in the chaos outside, to jump out that window and fall into an eternal abyss where I’ll be able to cry myself to sleep and not have to wake up to an unforgiving world. The ghouls and souls will sympathize with me and moan with me. Bye bye world.
Man gets hit by a train
single greatest video on youtube
You’ll never stay the best, but keep getting better and keep giving it your 110%.
